It all happened so fast.

Them: “You’ll be ok, you’re just feeling lonely right now”

Me: No I won’t. I’ve felt lonely all my life and the minute I felt like I didn’t have to do this life thing alone it all disappeared...

🎶 Cues: Aretha Franklin - Hurts like hell; Pops open a bottle of red wine and then I start contemplating the worst.

No amount of words can describe the amount of pain I am feeling.

Being told to let go and move on feels like the knife in my heart is being pushed deeper. The pain isn’t even physical but it’s the worst amount of pain I’ve ever felt.

Replaying everything in mind just to figure out what exactly happened. Replaying all the conversations we had just to see where it went wrong and I can’t put my finger on it.

“It’s been so long” they tell me... I guess I never really healed. I did try move on but life is what it is, and you moving on makes me feel so selfish because I don’t want to hold you back ... I want to see you happy.

I remember thanking you for being in my life (or rather sharing a part of my life) because even with my flaws, I was a better version of myself with you. Love does truly heal all.

I guess it’s time I let go. Even though I don’t want to, “I’ve got to learn to let it go.”